That is my goal for 2011.
Not radical dieting. Not exercising myself to death. No extremes.
Healthy perspectives. Balanced living.
I have been hesitant to put this in writing because pretty much every year it is my goal to lose weight. It is my hope, my desire, my cry to God as I fail over and over again. Being overweight has been a struggle since a very young age. Food is my comfort. I'm most definitely an emotional overeater.
The Lord is so gracious to meet us where we are at and to provide help and guidance as He takes us along each of our unique journeys. There are many different people and situations that He has provided over my life to make me more aware of my issues and to show me truths and His love, but the turning point most recently has been Christian counseling.
In May of 2008 a friend told me about a Christian counselor and I knew that this is what I needed. It seemed so outrageous at the time to make an appointment to see one, but thank you Lord that I got past my fear and pride and made the appointment. Really I think everyone could benefit from seeing one. It is so nice to talk to someone who is objective and can bring to light perspectives that I just couldn't see myself. I think the single most important thing that counseling has provided me is bringing to light the lies I have lived by and to replace them with God's truth. There are so many things that we think about ourselves because of the way we were raised or how we were treated or how we interpreted the people around us as we grew up. It forms our world view and how we fit into the world. Satan often uses our childhood view of life to turn into truth about who we are. Our childhood view is based on how we felt in situations and how we felt others thought of us - feelings, not truth. Sometimes those feelings we had were true, but it still does not define who we are. We are all children of an Almighty God who knew us before we were conceived and has a plan for each one of our lives and loves us no matter how we choose to live this life. We are all broken people that need Jesus to mend the wounded parts of our heart and strengthen us to reveal God's glory.
It is a continual journey to replace lies with God's truth, but I am so thankful that during the last 3 years I can see many lies that God has replaced in my heart with His truths. I often understand the lies intellectually, but it takes longer to sink into my heart and become a truth I believe and live by.
So all this work on gaining a Godly perspective has helped me have the courage to start running last year and this year add on a healthy eating plan. I can't express to you the panic attacks that occur when I think about being on any "diet". I have never been successful following diets for any length of time. I rebel and just can't handle not being able to use food whenever I need to. It was hard to live up to everyone elses standards (or the standards I thought they had for me) and not use food to keep it together. I don't have that pressure anymore or at least I try not to put that on myself.
On January 10th I started counting calories and being accountable to a friend for my food. I feel good, I feel strong, I have peace about it (most of the time). I know that my perspective has changed. I know that I am willing to obey. I'm not doing it perfectly, but I'm also not eating blindly. I choose to add more calories and know the impact it will have. Total restriction brings out rebellion in me, so moderate is my modo. :-)
I've lost 10 lbs!
I've lost 2.5 inches!
May have been a little more. I didn't take my measurements in January.
I found a piece of paper with my measurements from December 2009 and I've lost 12.25 inches since then. That is so exciting to realize. It is encouragment to move forward. I know the pounds are not melting off, but it is slow and steady.
Before & Current After Pic
A little differnce. :-)
My #1 goal for this year is consistent quiet time in the morning, preferably before the kids get up. I know that I will lose my focus if I'm not relying on God for strength and truth.
My #2 goal is to keep to a healthy eating plan.
My #3 goal is to continue running and weight lifting and other activities that keep me active.
I share this to be accountable.
I share this to give testimony of how God is changing my life and hopefully that brings glory to Him.
That's what we're here for.
RESOURCES
Email me if you would like info on my counselor. She is awesome!
Another awesome resource that God has provided is the blogger and author,
Lysa TerKeurst. Thank you Amy for forwarding her blog to me several years ago. It has definitely been one of the tools that God has used to bring truth into my life. Lysa's latest book,
Made To Crave, is her testimony about how God helped her overcome her food issues. It is an awesome book. She also has webcasts re-airing every Tuesday that are definitely worth viewing about deeper truths that God has been showing her and others regarding food issues. Which all of it applies to any issue you may have.
Another great author from my past is
Elizabeth George. My favorite of her's is, "Loving God With All Your Mind".
Also any study from Beth Moore is worth doing (can't wait to see her this weekend at the Tacoma Dome).
And one last resource that I have used to get to know God better is
Bible Study Fellowship. It is an awesome Bible study with a great program for kids 0-17yrs.
Please feel free to email me if you have any questions or want more information.